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Name: Kara
Birthday: 12/1/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: SHOPPING!!!! Singing, Reading, Writing...all that good stuff....spending time with my boyfriend :)
Expertise: Um, talking? LoL....I guess
Occupation: Other
Industry: Other
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AIM:  karalizabeth85
Member Since:
5/16/2004
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| I am trying to understand myself today. I woke up with a weird feeling. I don't know if I'm feeling happy or sad. I would call it melancholy, but I'm not melancholy. I have all these thoughts running through my head. No way to understand any of them, and it frustrates me. I know this doesn't make any sense, but it's my blog.
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| So I'm up at 5:53 in the morning because I couldn't sleep. I tossed and turned all night long wondering about things in my life and my future. I'm at peace for the moment, and I'm still happy. I want to stay this way. Dad is driving me back to Little Rock in about 13 hours, and I get to spend this whole week with my husband. I am so melancholy about the whole situation. I am glad that he is finally going to academy so we can get out of the hell hole we are living in. I know that I am going to miss him so much. My heart already aches, but I keep telling myself that I am very blessed. He could be going off to war. Stupid, stupid war! That is another subject for another day. Wondering about how hard this is going to be started to wear me down mentally. I decided to stop worrying and look on the bright side. I am going to be out of Blytheville for three whole months; after that Gordon and I have pretty much decided to make this our place of resident. We did a pro/con list and Sherwood came out on top over the other choices. Moving to some of the other choices is something we want to do at a later date. Anyhow, back to looking at the bright side. I am going to get to go back to work, and believe me, that is wonderful because I was getting to be bored sick of staying at home doing nothing. I will be moving around and doing things. I also get to work with some of my favorite staff members. I love them and getting to spend time with them is really exciting. I also have people here that I can be with constantly, and I can go shopping because there are actually stores and malls here. All in all, I am going to be keeping myself busy so I don't sink into depression. I am going to rise above all that. Sitting around feeling down is not my thing anymore. I am starting over in many different aspects of my life.
I am smiling so don't bring me down.
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| So I have a Xanga, a Myspace, and a Facebook, and I'm an addict to at least two, but I just miss writing in this thing. No one uses these anymore.
Today I'm excited about so many things. I'm in Little Rock for the week, and I'm just relaxing. It is nice to see old faces. I've missed those faces so badly. My best friend is still in touch with me, and she is in love. I feel so blessed to see her so happy and to like the man she has chosen. I spent my mom's birthday with my family, and we had fun playing board games for three hours. It's funny that I laughed so much, because I thought I had forgotten how. Little things are bringing me such joy. I'm having fun spending time with my sister, and I'm trying to be more patient. I'm trying to renew old friendships. I want to be there for people, and I'm trying not to be judgmental. I am very open minded this year about everything, and although, some people may be unhappy with my choices, I am content. I want to have fun and be around people who make me laugh. I'm determined to try to be stress free this year. I think that I can accomplish that.
Basically, for the first time in my whole entire life, I can honestly say that I am proud of myself.
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| I'm really excited about today. I'm going to get my wedding dress. I know that none of you really care about this, but I'm pumped up about it. Egie is coming to see me this weekend too. I am excited to see her face!!! I have alot of stuff that I have to get done though. The house is a wreck. SO, I guess I'm going to spend the rest of my afternoon off cleaning! Gotta go!
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| I'm tired of working splits. They suck. The money is good though. Actually I don't even work that many, but I just don't like them. Sigh...life is so complicated.
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